I just passed the 2/3 mark a few days ago. Feeling really capable and really clear lately. Capable in the sense that I believe I can reach my goals and I know I can stick with something on this level. I am enjoying the rhythm of slowing chipping away at something. Slowly building. I feel patient and assured. I have a lot of work to do to get to where I want to be, and I am ok with that. I will do the work, and I will get there.
There is so much I want to say about this sketchbook project, and I really don't know how to go about scratching the surface of that. Through this entire project I've found it difficult to express the impact it has had because it's been so profound. I'm not sure I can come anywhere close to conveying it, but I'd still like to share what I can.
A few months ago I was having a hard time with the project. My friends kept me going. Having a sketchbook specifically made for this project kept me going (having it partially filled would have taunted me forever!). I was questioning whether or not sketching every day was actually helpful, even though I have always heard that it is, because on so many days I was creating something I didn't like or feel connected to. It made me wonder what the point of those days was. Why not just skip them and get to the good stuff?
I finally believe in working daily. It's bringing about clarity, and it's showing me how and what to practice. Previously I'd have an idea and just get stuck because there was this huge, dense forest between myself and the end product. Sketching everyday has been like taking a machete into the thick instead of just sitting on the other side feeling either discouraged or wondering how I might be able to get through. A path is emerging.
Lately I'm really into practicing with acrylic (as seen above). I love that it's such a quick and versatile medium to work with, and I LOVE working with it on paper. I'm considering setting a parameter to use acrylic only for next year's project, but I'm trying not to get too far ahead of myself. I have 112 days to go for this year, so it's not like I'm really close to done yet, but I am happy to say that I have still not missed a day! You can see all of my sketches so far here.