So, I've been working on my 365 project for 74 days now (and haven't missed a day so yay for that!). I've also had slews of other creative projects in, around, through, and in between those days, and I'm recently feeling like I'm having an awkward artistic growth spurt.
I'm open to exploring right now, but as a result I'm feeling less in control of my process. For me, that's very uneasy and unsettling, but it's something I'm trying to become acquainted with accept for what it is. At the same time, I'm finding it hard to let go completely and take big risks, which I feel is where real growth and discovery lies. Is it enough to take a series of small risks? To just practice everyday? Maybe. I am certainly making progress as it is - I feel myself learning and know that I am finding new techniques - but I'm also wanting to push myself to be more bold in my experimenting. I just don't want to inhibit my own growth as an artist by being shy to completely mess something up. SO WHAT if I completely mess something up, especially in my sketchbook.
On that note, it's been sometimes-difficult-but-mostly-liberating-and-fun to share my sketches every single day on Instagram. As much as I may not want to admit it "as an artist", I do care about people liking my work - at least to an extent. That makes it a little harder to post things I'm not completely in love with, but I've kept up with it and haven't hidden anything that I felt was less-than-awesome. Happily, I've gotten a lot of great feedback from folks and SO appreciate all of the support. However, this breaking down of my outer wall in that way is new for me too, so it's another aspect of my awkward growth phase right now. I'm just trying to become comfortable with a lot of different and new things all at once.
I just felt like sharing this - I'd love to write about the process of my 365 sketchbook here from time to time as it progresses. I've been keeping loose tabs on it in my own personal journal, but I've always appreciated hearing these sorts of insights from other artists so I'm putting them out there in the hopes that they have some sort of nice impact on other folks working along on their own journeys. If there's anything you guys would like to hear about specifically, I'd love to know!
Happy Monday. :)